Screw the Mayan that was in charge of the calendar. I'm guessing he got to 2012 and yellow fever took his life. Those bastard conquistadores messed up everything for the poor Mayans. Anyway, it is now 2013. We all made it another year.
At the risk of sounding cliche, where the hell did the year ago? It seems like a couple weeks ago I was at Turner Field enjoying my Bravos beat the brakes off the Phillies. My dad has always said "The older you get, the faster they go." and he was absolutely correct. 2012 is a smoky blur of smiles and laughs. It was a wonderful and shitty year. I learned alot about myself and my friends and I also realized that I know nothing about myself and my friends. I am happy to say however, that the good times of 2012 far outweigh the bad. I have no doubt that I have grown as a person and maybe even got a little more mature.
I got close to some people that used to intimidate the shit out of me. An apartment that I used to feel awkward at is now a place where I'm welcome to take up the whole couch, put my feet up, and eat all the Jello and leftover Macaroni. I didn't know how bad I needed someone to confide in until they found me and now I have a wonderful friend.
I got back in touch with someone I thought was out of my life forever. Thanks to the Iphone that I got for Christmas, I can talk to her all the time even though she is half a world away. Talking to her never ceases to make me smile, and having someone to make me smile is something I've really missed in my life.
I got even closer to my ride-or-die friends. They have my back and I have theirs. I have a phone full of people to call when I'm in trouble. I've heard my whole life that your friends from high school fade away. Well, some of them did, but most of them are a text away and would still love to chill.
I finally got a job. I work with people I like being around and I finally have some disposable income.
There is no doubt that I have been blessed in 2012. Family, friends, and fraternity have given me countless hours of enjoyment and I am thankful for them all.
2013 has things in store that I can't even begin to imagine at this point. I rung in the new year at work. Although I was bummed at first, I realized that it was the first time I had ever made money on New Years Eve. I can't count how many gorgeous girls came in so I had plenty of eye candy and even a few girls to hit on and strike out with.
The first official night of the year I spent with friends from high school before they headed back to college and internships. One of my closest friends is moving to Orlando tomorrow to work at Disney. Her being in Tuscaloosa was bad enough but now she will be in Florida. She is one of the most driven people I know and I am just as excited to see what the new year holds for her as I am for myself. Tonight was awesome. I sat around and played board games with some of the people I hold dear to my heart. It feels like we're all growing up because we hang out sober and enjoy the hell out of it.
I have made my resolutions for the year and I pray I have the willpower to keep them. The first is to be healthier. Maybe not lose weight or something like that but, just be more active. Smoke less, move more, breathe more.
Number two is a resolution I have had a few years running but I really want to see it through this time. I need to let the past be past. For so long I have kept myself in a constant state of making sure other people have what they need without considering what it does to me. After much consideration I realized there is only so much I can do. When a friend needs to talk to me about something important, I give them my time and attention within the day, in person, without distraction. I don't say "I'm here for you and we will talk about it soon." and never make a fucking effort. I don't lie to my friends and say I will hang out with them when I know for a fact that I won't. I won't fool someone into thinking that they are important to me and try to hide the fact that I really just don't give a shit about them. Its time for me to stop letting things happen to me that I would not do to my friends. 2013 is a time to get rid of the "friends" who see me as often as my aunt and uncle in Atlanta. Its time for me to involve myself with people who value me as I value them and forget people who just play the game and say I'm important and never show it. 2013 is the year to set foot upon my future and stop resting on my past because its become perfectly clear that the people from the past that I thought were concerned with me, are only concerned with themselves.
2013 has so much in store and I'm ready for the changes I make to bring them out.
Happy New Year everyone!
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